Don't Give Up

As it turns out beer was not the problem this weekend. It was the food. After my friends and I left the football game we went to get food. The problem was that we went somewhere that had absolutely no healthy options. We went to a pizza place that was only serving greasy pizza, calzone, stromboli and that was pretty much it. I could have said something, but this is where everyone else wanted to go. So I didn't say a word. Instead I ordered my food and ate it, regretting every bite.

I thought that I would really enjoy it, but in all honesty it was horrible. I hadn't eaten anything like that in over a week so it actually ended up making me feel like I wanted to puke more than anything. About half way through our meal my Sib who came down to watch the game said, "Oh Sib we should have gone somewhere you could've found something healthy to eat." I assured her that it was fine and then everyone else at the table started to feel bad. I didn't want to make anyone feel bad which is why I didn't say anything to begin with. A whole lot of good that did. If I learned anytihng from this particular experience this weekend it was to speak up.

Today I stepped on the scale and it turns out that I only lost one pound this week. Which is kind of a downer, but I also know that I was not nearly as intense this week. What with having to quit the workout program. I also went to the dentist on Tuesday which pretty much kept me innactive the rest of the day, Wednesday was horrible as I spend the whole day at the doctors office and found out I was going to have to have surgery on my back again. Thursday is my fault and if I hadn't have spent half of the day feeling bad for myself I could have probably accomplished something.

Everyday I would give myself an excuse and say I'll get back on this tomorrow. That's no different than what I did in years past and look where it got me. Not where I want to be in terms of fitness that's for sure. There were picutres posted from my outing with my sorority sisters Friday and I wasn't happy about how I looked in them and I don't want to feel that way anymore. I've made a commitment to myself and I'm keeping with it. If I don't believe in myself who will?

Friday I watched Dr. OZ while I was getting ready to leave town and he said some interesting things that I will share with you all tomorrow. Until then, I have a 15 page paper to write that's due on Thursday and need to get back to that. Oh the joys of being a graduate student...lol. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.